Wednesday, May 02, 2012
It is a sad combination. Pink Floyd and discovery of my own depressed thoughts back in 2004? How did I get here? Fucking funny......
Sunday, May 16, 2004
I drawed for Lee today. I have not done that for a long time. It's actually a lot of fun. I can even picture Lee gigling when reading the letter with drawing. I should draw more for Lee since I know he likes it. OK, I guess I will do just that.
I also cleaned up kitchen a little bit today. It looks much more organized now, and I do feel better about it. Man, I got to do more housekeeping shit around the house. Stiil a lot of stuff needs to be done!
I am especially happy about getting Denise's e-mail message. She wrote a lot this time. I need to write her often to encourage her of being positive. She is so promsing. I have to do my best to assist her to become a better person. She is the best girl I ever know.
I also cleaned up kitchen a little bit today. It looks much more organized now, and I do feel better about it. Man, I got to do more housekeeping shit around the house. Stiil a lot of stuff needs to be done!
I am especially happy about getting Denise's e-mail message. She wrote a lot this time. I need to write her often to encourage her of being positive. She is so promsing. I have to do my best to assist her to become a better person. She is the best girl I ever know.
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
It's been more than just a few days since I last posted anything. Being busy is just one of the reasons. Something is bothering me, clearly. I really have to pay full attention to what I must do. I must remind myself all the time. I will overcome. Drugs don't do shit for me, man. Fuck all those motherfucker faking shit! I myself can do it just fine.
Monday, May 03, 2004
Thinking that all others are just as same as you. There is no differences of race, religion, background, and all things limiting us having an open heart to accept all people from all places. Be loving to others. See only good side of them, and discard dark side of them. It might seem totally impossible to reach, but I could actually be trained to become a loving person. Why not? I just need to constantly remind myself that training itself can take any place at any time, and I better be prepared, well prepared for it.
Friday, April 30, 2004
I am feeling better now. It's great to feel good now since it's Friday afternoon, and I am gonna go home soon to rest. Yes, plenty of resting for me this weekend. I really need that. But I still have so much shit to do, I doubt that I could actually get plenty of resting this weekend. No, no matter what, I will get plenty of resting. I must, or I will go nuts! But I am still thinking about finishing reading two more books. I got to cool down, man! Stop thinking about anything!
Thursday, April 29, 2004
I need to be calm! I am not attached to anything and anyone; therefore, I am totally freed. Inner peace is created by me only. Do not allow anything or anyone to disturb it. I am feeling much cooler now. OK, lunch break is over, and I can go on now!
